The War AiN’T OVER yet!

What’s with the ever changing seasons?… Hmmmmm…. In the aftermath of heavy downpours, I still have to get my groove back! Hayyy… It’s as if the energy has also left me together with the rains. Arrrgghhhh! I don’t like this.

For almost three weeks now, I’ve been too lazy to go to the gym though I miss the group exercises much, especially my yoga and combat classes.

I used to hit the gym five times a week. There was even a time when I would go there everyday but I had to compromise with myself for at least  5x since there’s hardly a room left for my muscles to rest. But for the past weeks, I only get worked out three times a week!

I should get going before my body adopts to a sedentary lifestyle once again. I don’t like to go back to my poor old self, a couch potato—a pacman-like creature who would devour anything that will fancy his mouth.

I'm seeing the signs– (or am i just being paranoid?)Today, I had spaghetti (carbo!) for brunch. I still have chicken curry and I’m thinking whether or not I should have it for merienda later since I ordered rice from our pantry girl here in the office. And tonight, my amiga invite me to eat at Cyma, a Greek resto in Greenbelt 3, since its grilled pork chop has been tagged as a must-try…  gosh, temptations, temptations, fucking temptations!

Funny, I even have a photo on my desk to remind me of how I looked way back in 2003 when I was at my heaviest. I also posted one of my latest photographs at my thinnest which was taken about two months ago, again, to remind me of what I have achieved so far in my never-ending battle with the bulge… and to encourage me to keep goin’… (I used to be 230 lbs in 2003 and I weighed 190lbs in June. I refused to weigh nowadays for I’m pretty sure, I gained some extra pounds!)

The photos have been on my desk for a couple of weeks and so far… nothing… nada…! So, help me dear God! 

Tonight, I RESOLVE to hit the gym. There should be no excuses since the building is just across my office. Let’s see if I can make it… I’m betting I’ll win this time!

Does LOVE really last forever?

A dear friend forwarded me this text message: "Love is not forever… Forever is a lie, and if love comes your way, you'll never know when it will end or die, but Love has a rhyme and always has its time, because Love is just between 'i love you' and 'goodbye.'"

Taking a much deserve break (after all it was 3 pm), i decided to engage him and commented on his forwarded text (i usually ignore forwarded text messages…) The highlight of that brief exchange of messages goes:

Warrior: Love is forever sis. We are alive today because of the universal energy which is called LOVE. It's unfortunate that some people (or most of them) put Love in a box and limits its power. Love endures. Love lasts because God is love and He is the source.

My friend: Wow! reminds me of my philo class. Then again, the capacity to love is forever but not the object of love…

Warrior: Yes, but if you are above it all, your love for a person can last forever, even beyond this lifetime… even if you think that the other person is gone or both of you have moved on. That's what we call Unconditional Love or in the words of Paolo Coelho– "Agape."

My friend: So you still love (name of the person)

Warrior: Yes, but no longer in a romantic way. It has evolved into something deeper. I can truly say yes, i still love the person because i really wish him well in his choices. It took time though. But I can say now I support him fully without judgment. Kagaya mo, I support you all the way

My friend: Uyyy…

Warrior: True yan sis. After all, we are accountable for our actions. We can't blame others for what we have become because we always have a choice. As a friend, I can only support you… but you make your choices. It's your life. Ganun din sa kin, i make my choices and decisions and I expect my friends to support me and pray that i made the right one

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