Alone again (naturally)…

A week after i posted my "waiting to exhale" entry, i am slowly getting back into my groove…

Still lots of work to be done (and there's only just four working days left before the long break) but somehow, the situation has been manageable. That's because i've accepted the fact that some tasks simply just can't be done and it's not totally my fault. When i accepted it's the reality, that's when i felt better and i was slowly exhaling…

And so, over the past few days, i had my much-delayed haircut (barber's cut this time… super iksi!), spent time at the spa, and visited my derma to finally had that "magic potion" (i call it that coz until now, i don't know what's being injected on my acne that makes it disappear in overnight!). I also made an effort to have a regular work out schedule at the gym.

I also did what i haven't done for a long, long time– i.e. watch a movie alone. Yeah, i love doing some stuff on my own but i dreaded the thought of eating at a restaurant, malling and watching movies… alone. 

For me, these activities are meant to be enjoyed with friends. Or special someone if you have one. Ang feeling ko, napaka-pathetic ko naman if do this alone.

On that particular Saturday, all of my friends had schedules of their own and my urge to watch Elizabeth I was a spur of the moment. Knowing that it's just the only free time i have, much to my horror, i was forced to watch it alone. I did the usual routine that a moviegoer does– queued for the ticket, bought some snacks at Burger King, and finally on to the movie house.

For a few minutes, I felt sorry for myself. But when I started to concentrate on the film ( and ignored that insistent voice telling me "you're pathetic, pathetic, pathetic…" ), I truly enjoyed Cate Blanchett's magnificent portrayal as the iconic queen. I totally forgot that i was watching alone!

Having plenty of time left, i then did another thing that day that i haven't done for years– explored Glorietta and people watch by myself!

I am proud of what i accomplished that day. More than the beautiful movie and my other activities, I was actually happy with another lesson learned– that it's okay to be alone. It's not bad, after all. It's all in my mind.

I was alone (naturally), but not necessarily lonely .

(image on this blog was lifted from www.camargue-nature.co.uk)